The last few days have been a blur of binging and purging- Yesterday alone I ate five Skor bars and a dark chocolate Milky Way. I don't know what happened- all my control slipped away and it's terrifying me. I'm so scared that I'm gonna gain weight. I'm getting fat again I can feel it.
I can't waste $100 worth of pills on a week long puke fest. Tomorrow I'm getting up early to go running. Weeks like this make me so depressed.... I feel like I have nothing anymore. Why can't I stop? What is so hard about it? I'm sick of throwing up. It's absolutely revolting.
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